I miss my Mommy!

Sunday, June 22, 2008

Current mood: Sad and Lonely


It's seems like all I do lately is cry. I could cry at the drop of a hat.

I think it all started last week when my brother Dean got married. It was an event in our families lives and my Mom wasn't there to share it.

Dean wanted me to light a Memory Candle for her as part of the wedding ceremony. It took all my strength to hold it together as I lit the candle. I miss her so much and I know she was there in spirit.

I know my brother misses her too. I know he would have wanted to dance with her and I know she would have wanted the same. My Mom and brother were extremely close, let's just say he was a Momma's boy. I had the honor of dancing with my brother and I chose the song "My Wish" by Rascal Flatts. I cried like a complete baby while we danced. He was on the verge of tears as well, so he started cracking jokes and eventually I calmed down and then we laughed. I'm sure my Mom was watching and was proud.

But sometimes I get mad, I want her here with me. I want her to see all my accomplishments and I wanted her to be there for Dean on his wedding day. I tried my best to keep it together for my brother. I needed to be strong. I guess that's the role of the older sibling, but sometimes that role can really SUCK!

I guess I'm just emotionally drained. I have a great deal on my plate right now. I'm in the process of relocating and starting a new job. I'm excited but scared too. It's a big move! I just wish my Mom was here to help me stay calm and reassure me that everything is going to be OK.

I know you can see me Mom and I know you are all around me.....just know that I love and miss you very much.

My Wish for Dean

Tuesday, June 17, 2008

Current mood: Proud to be Dean's sister

The first time I heard this song by Rascal Flatts, I knew it was the song I wanted to dance to with my brother at his wedding. The words are so powerful and so true. I wish him all the best in everything he does.

This past Saturday, my brother Dean got married. It was a beautiful wedding and he married a beautiful woman named Jennifer.

My Wish
By Rascal Flatts

I hope the days come easy and moments pass slow
And each road leads you where you want to go
And if you're faced with a choice, and you have to choose
I hope you choose the one that means the most to you
And if one door opens to another door closed
I hope you keep on walkin' till you find the window
If it's cold outside, show the world the warmth of your smile
But more than anything, more than anything

My wish, for you, is that this life becomes all that you want it to
Your dreams stay big, your worries stay small
You never need to carry more than you can hold
And while you're out there gettin’ where you're gettin’ to
I hope you know somebody loves you, and wants the same things too
Yeah, this is my wish

I hope you never look back, but ya never forget
All the ones who love you, and the place you left
I hope you always forgive, and you never regret
And you help somebody every chance you get
Oh, you find God's grace, in every mistake
And always give more than you take.
But more than anything, yeah more than anything

My wish, for you, is that this life becomes all that you want it to
Your dreams stay big, your worries stay small
You never need to carry more than you can hold
And while you're out there gettin’ where you're gettin’ to
I hope you know somebody loves you, and wants the same things too
Yeah, this is my wish

I love you Dean!

Total B.S.!

Wednesday, June 11, 2008

Current mood: Outraged!


You are not going to believe this one. I am so outraged that I'm actually speechless. You have to read the following news story about a woman who got fired for shaving her head for charity.

Waitress loses job after shaving head for cancer charity
Ontario woman's father died of disease

A 36-year-old waitress at an Owen Sound, Ont., restaurant lost her job this week after she shaved her head to raise money for a cancer charity.

Stacey Fearnall said it was a 'pretty easy thing' to shave her head to raise money for cancer research, but was stunned when her boss fired her over it. (CBC)Stacey Fearnall raised more than $2,700 for the charity Cops for Cancer, a local fundraiser for cancer research.

Then the 36-year-old waitress at Nathaniels restaurant was laid off when she showed up for work earlier this week with her newly shorn look.

Up until a week ago, Fearnall had long red locks, but she said she made the decision to have her head shaved because she has a friend battling cancer and she lost her father to the disease.

"I felt like this was a pretty easy thing for me to do to raise money to help people," she told CBC News on Thursday.

She said she told her bosses what she was planning to do, but when she arrived at work at the restaurant practically bald, she said they sent her home and told her she wasn't welcome back.

"'We'll call it a layoff.' That's what he said," Fearnall said her boss told her. "'Spend the summer with your kids.' I call it losing my job."

Nathaniels owner and chef Dan Hilliard issued a statement late Thursday saying Fearnall did not advise him that she was planning to shave her head.

'I have worked for fine dining restaurants before and have never heard of someone with a bald head not being able to be a server. Does this mean that bald men shouldn't serve?'
--Mandi Lee

"Mr. Hilliard had indicated that this is an employer-employee matter and such matters are not to be dealt with in the public," the statement said.

Her dismissal has already provoked an outcry from some in the community.

"You have to express yourself with your wallet," George Brechin said. "I won't be eating there in the future."

'It's not hurting anybody'

Rowena Pinto, spokeswoman for the Canadian Cancer Society, told CBC News her organization has never heard of something like this happening before in relation to any of its fundraising events.

"We want to underline that it's supporters like Stacey that enable us to carry out our mission," Pinto said.

Fearnall might have grounds to sue on the basis of gender discrimination, said Barbara Hall, chief commissioner of the Ontario Human Rights Commission. Hall noted that bald men work at restaurants.

"If something were acceptable if done by a man but not by a woman, then there might be a basis for a complaint," she told CBC News.

Fearnall said she isn't sure if she wants to sue, but she doesn't think she did anything wrong.
"I think it's for a good cause," she said. "It's not hurting anybody and it doesn't affect my ability to work."

She said she is working at a new part-time job where her boss loves her new look and has offered her extra shifts.